Whether a person is dealing with an obsession with drugs, alcohol, money, sex or food, the nature of this obsession is the same. The greed for more (in quantity, frequency and intensity) escalates as the person breaks down more and more boundaries that have previously defined what kept him safe.
These boundaries may relate to the physical body, social circle, our moral codes (what behaviors we will and won’t accept from ourselves), and our dignity (what we will and won’t tolerate from others).
Deep in the throes of addiction, gripped by obsession, we cross that line again and again, pushing our boundaries further and further away from us.
These internal boundaries, which once prevented us from hurting ourselves and others, now can no longer keep our behaviors in check. We’ve freed ourselves from our own protection and left the door wide open for careless indulgence in our drug, and we descend madder and madder into a tight, small hole of existence where the only thing that keeps us going is more drugs, even when it’s become obvious that we are destroying ourselves by continuing in that cycle. Our mind directs this breaking-down of our boundaries, it has a life of its own and we can’t do anything to stop it from running our lives. Just a thought.
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